~I just feel so much in my heart right now. Words truly cannot express how full my heart is. I just finished watching the movie "A Far Off Place". It has always been one of my favorites since I was a little girl. The music in it has always stirred deep emotions within me. It is just gorgeous. It has a melody that tugs at my heart. I ...

Here are the latest pictues of Samuel and the kids.  He is doing really great!  At his two week check on Monday the Pediatrician said he looks perfect.  We are adjusting pretty well.  The main problem for me is just lack of sleep right now, but that will get better with time.  Anywho, enjoy the pictures. Samuel's fi...

I've been pondering, and struggling somewhat, on how exactly to write what I'm going to write today - for quite some time. Growing up, I was encompassed by stability.  I had a stable religion which required us to attend meetings once per week, which we did religiously (pun intended).  I had two parents who loved one another.  My m...

I've been writing a snippet of code to take a list of rows from a table in an Oracle database, and have been having problems with a pesky error having to do with PostgreSQL's character encoding and PHP's handling of it. The error I've been receiving is thus: Query failed: ERROR: invalid byte sequence for encoding "UTF8": 0xae HINT: Th...

*sigh* As programming techniques become more and more complex, and the programmers continue to be just as, or more, diversified, companies who insist on being the industry standard while tossing away organizations such as the W3C, make life as a web developer increasingly difficult. If that didn't make much sense, let me rephrase:  Micro...

Three days ago my inlaws arrived here, and the living arrangements were such that Annie, Craig, and their two wonderful children got to bunk up with us here in Springville. I don't want to go into detail as to the exact happenings of this weekend, but I'd find it hard to maintain peace within unless I wrote a bit about something which I could im...

One thing I noticed while reading verses 7 through 11, apart from the torn emotions of all the people, was what caused their emotion. Why did they feel so "amazed" and fille with "pain and anguish", and with "exceedingly great joy"?  Well... When was the last time you felt filled with pain and anguish for some...

I got the chance to go to work with my mom yesterday and help run the shop while doing some seminary when we had no people in the store. Around 3 I sat down at one of the desks and opend my books and the door bell rang and I got up since my mom was on the phone helping some one else, but the man went to some products that I have NO clue about so I ...

Hmm....  I'm kind of tired right now, but I figured I needed to read some scriptures... This time around, I realize how being under the rule of a tyrant would be absolutely horrible.  In this case, Alma was under the rule of one (or more) of the Amulonites - which were his wicked peers when they were the king's priests.  Talk about...

Ya know when you have one of those days where something is just off?  Well..  Today started out that way, but that all changed when I decided to crack open a couple of my energy drinks. Now, I'm no proponent to something addictive and potentially dangerous, but I'm a believer also that everything has its place.  I mean... Morphine ...

 So, before I even begin reading this chapter, I've gotta say that this is one of those chapters which is seriously deep in doctrine.  I could probably spend the better portion of 2 or 3 days studying this one.  That said, I don't have much time to spend now, so I'll get as far as I can. Verse 1 : An "exceedingly high mountai...

To write... Feeling as though worthlessness is she who has found me... The block of feeling sinks deeper into an endless ocean... of creative decay. Yes, to write is to live. But to live defines my weakness my misunderstanding my inadequacy my wretched mind my life. nevertheless! to write... ..is to live... ...and I shall live....

What to write... I've been working on this "ilovemyjournal" site now for about a week, and it's getting addictive.  I just completed the calendaring system and it's quite cool.  CSS is *very* powerful.  Anyway... Life is good.  My new job at Nature's Way is kinda scary due to the amount of trust they all have in me, ...

 First off, I don't like at all that the congregation was laughing during the initial parts of the talk.  This interpretation of humor, to me, tells me people aren't really trying to empathize with someone who could ask that type of question.  Considering the implications of polygamy, the question of living in one's own house vs. liv...

I spent today away from my sweetheart, so I thought I'd see what kind of a "1 day love song" I could write to her.  So, I took approximately 5 hours and wrote her a love song.... or something...  It's my first attempt at recording myself playing guitar, and the lyrics consist of 8 whole words.  So...  Here ya go. ...

First off, today was much better than yesterday as far as basing my decisions to strengthen my family. I spent the morning with Luci, and most of the afternoon and evening with Luci and Sarah. At noon, I went in to get all the paperwork taken care of for my new job, and I must say... I'm impressed, excited and anxious all in one emotion. I'm sur...

Yup.. Today was my first day at the new job. Now, if anyone has gone through a lot of jobs with the honest intent of keeping every one he had, it's me. I've just had the luck of getting "let go" because of downsizing or whatever. Anyway... Usually, the first day on the job entails signing a bunch of paperwork and settling in. Today was anything but...

Seems that the testimony of Nephi against the people of Zarahemlah was centered around their disbelief in Christ.  Interesting that, as soon a Satan has control over a people, Christ is the first doctrine which is attacked. Also the story of the finding of the murderer of Seezoram is interesting through the eyes of the foreknowledge of God.&...

I am so upset right now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! My boyfriend Cameron and I broke up and I still have feelings for him. Then someone wrote a note to him saying I hate him because he's so rude! Actually he's very polite!!!!! I told him i didn't write it but he didn't believe me!!! Now we're going to different high schools...

 So, it's been awhile since I last wrote about the scriptures, but the fight to the end continues!  I'm in Las Vegas right now for a conference, and what better way to start my day in sin city than to read the holy words of God? 4th Nephi has always been an amazing chapter to me.  I would like to capture in my mind's eye, the way p...

A new group called "Smooth Intentions" made it down to the studio today and we began tracking a song called "Rain".  So far, it sounds quite good.  The song contains a gorgeous cello track, not often heard within the genre. We've got a keyboard track left to record, but the tune should be finished shortly. We'll se...

The first thing I noticed this time reading this was that even though the Nephites under Zeniff were at a time of peace, after the war, Zeniff was diligent in continuing his building of weaponry.  Not sure why that struck me this time, but the very first verse jumped out. Maybe it's because they didn't make any assumptions about their enemy....

Today during gospel doctrine, our teacher brought up a point I'm not entirely sure I knew or not. When Nephi states that he is keeping the record for a "wise purpose" in God, yet Nephi openly states he doesn't know what that purpose is, I've always assumed that purpose is the coming forth of the Book of Mormon. And I was right...&nb...

 So, I was reading this chapter when I came upon the phrase "fulness of joy" in verse 10.  The phrase caught my eye primarily because it was only mentioned for the 3 Nephites who chose to stay.  It was not mentioned for the others.  That caused me to wonder how often the phrase "fulness of joy" is used in scr...

Ya know...  This time around with this chapter was filled with little tid-bits of inspiration.  I don't remember this chapter being so filled with doctrine, but I'll do my best to write down what I thought about as I read the chapter. The first verse which caught my attention was verse 4.  The people of Limhi were, by and large, a ...

Ya know...  The first verses of this chapter brought back some well-known stories of Mormon culture.  The most potent one being the experience Joseph Smith had in a Missouri jail surrounded by a mob of people cursing and glorying in their raping, murdering, and wickedness against the Mormon people. Parley P. Pratt said the following in ...

I haven't written in awhile, so I thought I'd just kind of ramble and see where my mind goes. Lately, I've been working on a new layout for ILoveMyJournal, as well as quite a few structural changes.  The desire to make this site better came when my little bro. wrote a pretty personal and inspiring entry, and about the same time, my posted we...

It is quite refreshing to note the surety with which President Eyring states the following: "First, the very fact that you have been offered the oath and covenant is evidence that God has chosen you, knowing your power and capacity. He has known you since you were with Him in the spirit world. With His foreknowledge of your strength, He has ...

You know those types of musicians...  The ones that just "get it".  They don't worry much about writing the music, but rather, it seems to write itself.  Now, I'm not going to put words in his mouth, but it sure seems like this is the case with Alex Bateman. He came in, knew what he wanted, and the way he wanted his reco...

Before I even begin reading this one, I've gotta say that 2nd Nephi 2 is one of the power-doctrine chapters.  I'll be surprised if I can get through reading this today. Verse 2 contains an interesting phrase:  Consecrate thine afflictions for thy gain.  This brings to mind quite a few cross-references, but can you imagine how much...