Tue - Jul 16, 2002 : 10:45 pm
no mood
My Testimony
I wish I could describe to you how much gratefulness is in my heart for whoever is in the skies who loves me.  The prophets say He is Jesus Christ - and I believe them.  This being up there loves me more than I can possibly comprehend.  There is no way that words can describe to you, whoever you are, how much I want to learn to love Him.  
One thing I know without a doubt - and this is what kind of causes me to wonder - is that this Jesus Christ loves me.  How do I know it?  Well, quite frankly, there's no other explanation for what has happened throughout my life.  Let me explain.
During my lifetime, I have been blessed by many, many means - and through many, many ways.  I was blessed with loving parents, I was blessed with the best of friends, I was blessed with a good mind, and a good heart, and an overactive conscience.  Through this, I have somehow still managed to become a miserable excuse of a man.  I sin so grossly, and so often, I am amazed the being in heaven still considers me worthy of life.  Yes, that might be a bit dramatic, but the point is all but under-exaggerated.  Through my sins - which are many - this God, this Jesus Christ, this 'being in heaven' still - not only considers me worthy of life, but also considers me worthy to talk to.
In my prayers, even after I sin (some times more than others) I somehow can feel his loving arms around me - and not only that, but I still find some measure of happiness.  Yes, when I am living righteously and doing what I know is right and good, I experience a greater degree of happiness, but still - after everything I do - he still considers me worthy of.....His love.  This, to me, is amazing.  I just thought I'd tell ya all that.
In a way, that's my testimony... **my** testimony.  This I have felt personally, possibly hundreds of times.  I know it's true.  I've just got to learn to love him.  Thanks for listening.  In the name of Christ.